I’ve never felt so disillusioned in my life.
Okay yes you got me.
I did indeed start identifying as asexual because I’m on Tumblr.
And you know what.
If I wasn’t on Tumblr, if this website hadn’t taught me that wonderful little word, I would still be identifying as what I did before Tumblr.
Would you like me to tell you what that word was?
pepper + tony: beginning of iron man 3 and end
Sometimes I feel like if I feel down I can just log onto Tumblr and vent a little. But then I also feel like I can’t really. Cause even though I have all of these followers, who knows more little tidbits of what I’m feeling and what I like than anyone I know in real life, I feel like I’m still just trying to fit into an expectation of GothamPeasant. Just like in real life I’m still just a girl trying to seem like a genuinely good and wonderful human being, and at points I find my self not posting things because I don’t think you guys would appreciate it if I did. Which seems ridiculous at some point because hey its my blog.
But I have this blog for a reason, if only for a few moments to just enjoy the things I love along with other people and be able to post something without a face in front of me to act for.
But I also know that I run this blog for my followers, who also need the same thing.
I want this blog to be a place you guys enjoy and love, but sometimes I also need to get things out there that I can’t otherwise and I’m not sure I’m finding a good balance here.
:/ I think I’m having a blogger identity crisis.
Aisha (The Losers)